Sine rules and bubble sorts
Posted by Danni on January 30th, 2009
I didn’t go to college today. Was a good thing- after yesterday (and Wednesday evening) I was still way too anxious to cope with stuff. I also have London tomorrow (yay and scary at the same time) so need to be ready for that.
Before I left college on Thursday, I found out what I missed in maths today. I looked at it earlier, and can’t understand it at all. Fine then, I’ll do some homework. Looked at the homework, and that wasn’t making any sense. What is so frustrating is that if I’d been in class, I would have understood it no problem. It seems my brain only works for maths if I’m in college- once I’m at home it doesn’t work at all.
At some point before Wednesday I want to do the decision maths homework (I have 3 weeks worth to do) and by Friday I want to do the core 2 maths homework, and try and figure out what it was I was meant to learn today. I can only do this in college, and there is another problem: I only really have lunchtimes free, unless I arrive early (when I can’t get straight into work because I need to calm down from travelling) or leave late (which is tempting, but means getting home really late). Monday lunchtime I count the points (doing so is calming, and it’s useful) and Tuesday lunchtime I hope to go to the park with Laura. Wednesday morning is decision maths, and I don’t get a lunchtime unless I skip cookery (which I have done a lot recently).
Right now, I want to quit maths. I’ve been feeling this on and off for the past few months. I know I can do it, and parts of it are even easy, but my brain won’t let me do it at home. And it’s making me even more anxious, which is not good when people who don’t know me are spotting it.
February 9th, 2009 at 3:43 pm
Hi there, I was interested to find your blog. My son (6) and boyfriend (29) both have dyspraxia. My OH works as a carer, although the dyspraxia isn’t apparent to most people I think he uses a lot of coping strategies and avoids certain situations. Like supermarkets. Its harder for our ds at the moment as he goes into juniors, but he’s doing OK. Just thought it would be cool to comment really! Take care, keep studying!